The Return Home

On May 4, 2014 by Jeremy Durdel

Sometimes I find myself on a lonely path. One where a lot of times I make the mistake of thinking I have been the only one to have traveled it. I doubt, I complain, and probably my worst is comparing myself to others while judging them, a lot of times to try to justify myself. As I look around I see signs of others having been through here, the path is worn, maybe more than I like to admit. I mean if I am the only one to have been here, then I can have my pity party, for myself all by myself. That is just it though I am not the first to have traveled this path.

The Bible tells me in Hebrews 4:15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin.

Isaiah 53:3-4 He was despised and rejected by men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief; and as one from whom men hide their faces he was despised, and we esteemed him not. Surely he has borne our grief’s and carried our sorrows; yet we esteemed him stricken, smitten by God, and afflicted.

I know this but sometimes that just seems to not satisfy especially when I know He knew no sin. So maybe I need to know that some sinful person at some point in history has went through my same struggles and burdens.

Solomon said in Ecclesiastes 1:9-11 What has been is what will be, and what has been done is what will be done, and there is nothing new under the sun. Is there a thing of which it is said, “See, this is new”? It has been already in the ages before us. There is no remembrance of former things, nor will there be any remembrance of later things yet to be among those who come after.

Change the places and the faces and my life could just be someone else’s  life. Maybe life is really more than just work or school, parties and social activities, free time and nap time, hobbies or recreation. Maybe life is a journey where I am supposed to find myself in the Creators master piece called creation. Maybe the key to finding myself is truly in loosing myself. Maybe what is important isn’t what I get but what I can give to others. Maybe this selfish self-centered life is why I just don’t seem to find joy, peace and fulfillment.

Picture it this way suppose I wrote a script for a movie. I hire actors and actresses for the parts in the movie. The actors and actresses have a certain amount of freedom to what they say or do so long as it doesn’t change the story line. They will each bring with them their unique character traits personalities to the part they play. After all I wouldn’t hire Jim Carey to play the terminator lol. So it is with God. He wrote the story. Created the people to play the parts. Gave those people the liberty to ad lib, but not change the story. It has taken a bit but I have realized I’m not the star either. More importantly I realized this story really isn’t even about me, I play a small part but it’s not about me. In fact it’s not about you either. The story however is all about God and His plan to bring us home. The story didn’t end 2000 years ago, when the last writer put down his pen, either. The story is continuing to be told everyday in my life and yours.

So I ask myself what does all this mean “LIFE?” I mean what toils we go through that just seem to have no meaning. The seemingly worthless pursuits that we endeavor to be on. If God made a vision and purpose for my life then how do I find the place God made for me? More importantly with all my past sin how does God intend on using me? So marked up with regrets and sin. Well God forgave me of my past, present and future sin. He doesn’t have a problem letting go forgetting what lies behind and focusing on what lies ahead. The problem is me forgiving, not just myself but others as well. Paul got this, he said in Philippians 3:12-14 Not that I have already obtained it or have already become perfect, but I press on so that I may lay hold of that for which also I was laid hold of by Christ Jesus. Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. So it is up to me to forgive and forget not always just others but also myself.

I have realized something about this journey though. I can make it about whatever I want,  work or school, parties and social activities, free time and nap time, hobbies or recreation. If I choose those things if I choose to be selfish instead of selfless and I can, then this is my “LIFE” this is it for me and I would be foolish not to eat, drink and be merry for tomorrow I will die. If I choose Selfless Love and Sacrifice, if I choose others before self, if I choose God and Jesus then this life I lose but I gain “LIFE” eternal life which is far better than the here and now life. Deep inside is the voice that calls for the need to put others first to neglect self and respond to the needs of others.

So it is today God that I your servant give myself not just once but daily and even moment by moment to the carrying of my cross, for the cause of Jesus Christ. It is today that all things be made new, old things be washed away and a renewing of my mind begins. Today is the day that You have made and I choose to rejoice and be glad in it. Today is the day that You have begun a new work in me, and that You are faithful to bring the work You have started to completion. God I will trust You even when You are not there, or when it seems You are not there, because I know that You go before me, You follow after, You hold me on Your shoulders and You look down from Heaven on me. So needless to say You have covered me in Your Love. Surrounded me with Your strong arm of  protection. God no matter where life takes me I know that You will lead me to the road home. You will not leave me to wonder the deserts of life alone. You are my Shepherd, You are my Strength and You are my God.

I set my life’s work to fulfill Matthew 28:18-20 And Jesus came up and spoke to them, saying, “All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth. “Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”

I know it has been a long time coming but YOU ARE LOVED always have been always will!!!!

Jeremy Durdel (20 Posts)

Forgiven, not by anything I have done, thank you Jesus, but only because of what Jesus has done for me.


 

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